Movement is Life

When I’m old and gray and reflecting back, I know I’ll say training for and running my first marathon was a pivotal point in my life.

I’d wanted to run a marathon since I was 17 yrs old. I’d imagined the glory of it all a million times. Every 2-3 miles around the track at the University gym I’d think, “maybe, one day.”

I was never the athlete I really wanted to be—or inside thought I was capable of. As I got older, running felt like my redemption.

I starved myself & treated my body badly for so long, I didn’t think I’d ever be strong enough to last for 26.2 miles. Compounding my eating disorder was alcoholism. I figured I’d always be hungover on weekend mornings, so long runs were a long shot.

Then, almost all of the sudden it seemed I was 34 (and 9 years sober). In 18wks of training, I ran 72 times and covered 438 miles. I’d say I cried on about 68 of those 72 runs. Whether it was a 5 miler or the big 20, somewhere, I’d have a moment where I’d go, “Holy shit, this is it, you’re doing it. You’re really gonna do this.”

I believed running a marathon wasn’t for me, that it was a dream that wouldn’t be realized. It was a feat for “real” athletes—for people with more strength and fortitude than I was capable of.

I believed that I could not, and then, I did. 

Goddamn the whole world looked different after I crossed that finish line.

For the first time in my life, I truly believed that I could do anything—that no dream was too big or far away. I felt sure that the visions in my heart were true–put there not to taunt me, but to push me forward into a life even beyond my vivid imagination.

To believe you can’t, and then to do–to break free of the limiting ideas we bind ourselves up with–this is something I’d like everyone to experience.

Movement can be one of our biggest teachers. Connecting to our self and building communication between our body, mind, and spirit, can set us on a path to real joy and freedom. It’s why I want to work with athletes and athlete-minded people. I’d like to help you discover your full potential—on the field and off. Remember, “athlete” is a broad term. You don’t need the body of a god, to have the heart of a champion.

You’ll get yourself over whatever finish line you’re after–the marathon, the career change, the restored sense of self. But first, let me help you to the starting line. I know from experience, it can be the toughest threshold to pass.



photo: hudson hintze 

22 thoughts on “Movement is Life

  1. Sorry Cat, been blitzed.What lovely exciting times for you in your latest renewed life. Best of luck with the life coaching, I’m sure you will be brilliant, just because you’re you! Take care and aim high my friend

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  2. Breathing Deeply

    Very inspirational post Cat. And absolutely not sales pitchy at all! You have a gift and a desire to help people and the only way your going to reach those that need you is to put yourself out there, so keep at it. Your practice will grow. 🙂 Maggie

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    1. Thanks Maggie! I definitely feel like that is the tough part of this–in some ways trying to “sell” myself. Not a fan of that at all! Thank you for the encouragement though, I will keep going!! Hope all is well. x


  3. Erratic Movement

    It’s only in the last few years that I’ve started to think of myself as an ‘athlete’. I don’t know what the dictionary definition is of the term but I like to think of it as someone who moves and is active. I’ve found its quite empowering because when you think of an athlete solely as the people on TV winning races and standing on the podium, you can forget that some of the key things that are part of being an athlete (setting and working towards a goal, taking care of your body, etc) are important for everyone. When you equate “athlete” solely with “world champion you see on TV”, there is so much distance between the average person and that image, so you may not always appreciate that those important body maintenance/goal setting/mental fortitude aspects are things that one can benefit from even if you’re a quote unquote ‘normal’ person. Sounds like things are going pretty well Cat! Good to see a few new blogs 😀

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    1. Paul! So great to hear from you! You are DEFINITELY an athlete. I agree, it’s really about any person who is committed to moving their body and pushing themselves. I do think also most non-professional athletes tend to have a focus–an activity (or activities) that they are really passionate about and challenge themselves in. I feel really lucky to have found that in running and in yoga. I really care about both things immensely.

      I think as a “regular person” athlete, I also have an even greater respect and admiration and appreciation for the pros. They are freakin’ amazing. Sure there are differences in talent and ability–but those men and women WORK. Knowing how hard I work at what I do–I am just blown away by those making a living from their sport.

      So good to hear from you Paul! Any races coming up? Hope all is well! x

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      1. Erratic Movement

        Alls good thanks Cat 😁 Work is going well, running is going well, so I’d say I’m in a pretty good place at the moment! Just trying to catch up on things, put myself out there for new experiences, etc. And hoping to get a non-haiku blog done at some point as it’s been so long!

        I’ve got Cardiff Half this weekend! Feeling good but haven’t ran a half at an effort since March. Taken my 5K time down to 18:24 which is fantastic, but we’ll see how I get on on the day!

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  4. This rings true to me too. I’ve never been ‘unfit’ and yet I have been in a lot of situations where I feel my strength and fitness has held me back, and as I get more into yoga I realise I still don’t really believe I can do advanced moves like forearm or handstand…I think it’s time for that to change! I can do it!!! Agggghhhhhh!!!!

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    1. Ahhh! Yes! You can do it. It’s so crazy, yoga to me is one of my biggest teachers of this concept. There’s so much i’ve been sure i would never be able to do–and a lot of it, i have done. But also there’s so much more to tackle, and challenge myself with. We were practicing headstands in class the other day (I am VERY new to them cause Bikram, the practice i normally do, doesn’t include them.) I was using the wall to help balance. I am still at a point where it feels very scary. Then after class I was chatting with the teacher and some fellow yogis and all of them said to me “you gotta fall!” They reminded me that I had fallen out of standing bow, and other postures, and when I hit the ground, I lost that fear of hitting the ground. They said it was the same thing. That when you are doing the headstand, the fall feels far–like it will hurt you. But you’ve gotta just do it–just fall to realize that you are not so far from the ground and that you will be ok. They all said that falling out changed everything for them.
      So that is my new challenge–to fall! I have a feeling once I do, my belief that i can do a handstand will grow–once i push through that fear.

      I am sure you are capable of those advanced moves. It’s your mind that’s blocking you now, not your physical ability. You got this!
      Love your voice Sarah! So happy you hear it here. x


  5. “To believe you CAN’T. And then to DO IT. Goddamn the whole world looked different after I crossed that finish line.”

    Absolutely! This is exactly how I feel after running my marathon – nothing looks the same to me and I couldn’t be happier with the change 🙂

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    1. This is why i want to work with athletes! Having that experience is really like nothing else. I think pushing our bodies and minds and hearts to accomplish something we think we can’t do–it changes our world, it opens it up. I think physical challenges can do that in a way that other things can’t! Love that you get it ;). x

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  6. Awesome to hear what you have been up to, cat! I love it. I already work with a coach but I strongly believe in the kind of work you are doing and I hope you are successful at it! I think coaching has been the most amazing experience for me and that I made more progress in coaching in a faster amount of time than I ever made in years of therapy.

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    1. Thanks Cristy! I think I remember you talking about how you had worked with a coach before and it had been helpful. I think it was actually one of those little signs i had that pushed me to look into it!
      It’s really been an amazing experience. The training has changed me so much–also made me realize how much work i have to do–not only to start a business but also just internally. I can see you making enormous progress in coaching cause you’re such a “doer”–you’re so motivated to take action when you’re unhappy with something in your life. Always inspired by that.
      So good to hear from you! Will try to catch up with your blog soon. Hope all is well lady. x

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